Im Feelin Some Sort Of Way....

so today i find out that my homeboy i grew up with partially is in Iraq right now as i type.

like.....i dont even know how to feel about this right now.....

i havent seen dude in almost a year...maybe more.
and the first thing he says when i ask him where has he been...."I'm in Iraq man..."

like...damn....i remember my mom tellin me he was going to the military, but IRAQ?????

and then facebook starts acting all glitchy and shit.....

damn i dont even know how to feel about this right now......Im at a loss for words. I just hope he comes back safe.

Karaoke

so....a few weeks ago i went to karaoke night at this restaurant called buffalo wild wings. some of you may know it, some may not.

but anyway...im hesitant about going tonight because the last time i went, i ended up being raped on the dance floor by a random chick...that was NOWHERE near cute.

This is what happened....

Well....these two girls were singing this Fergie song. One wasnt cute, the other one...well lets just say she was Latina, about 5'5'', had a nice set of tittys, a nice round booty, and she was cute as hell. but anyway...a few songs down the road, i decide to go up there and sing this Ginuwine song. I cant remember the name right now...OH "Stingy". anyway...after i sung the song the girl, the ugly one, who sung the Fergie came up to me and was like,

Her:"Hey, you sounded real good up there, you were great!"
Me: "thank you"
Her: "do you have a girlfriend?"
Me: "well i JUST got out a relationship"
Her: "ooooh, cause my friend really things you're cute and wants to talk to you"
Me: "sure, tell her to come over"

by this time im thinking its the fine latina chick she was singing with so I ask

Me: "your friend is the one that was singing the fergie song with you right?"
Her: "yeah...i mean noooo, my other friend. She's over in the purple shirt"

I proceed to look over at the bar to the girl in the purple shirt.....her ass is UUUUUGGGGLLLLLYYYYYY!!!!!
and she comes over.....(and me...i was with a bunch of people...male and female) and the ugly bitch had the nerve to come over....hug me like she knew me....and then mugged the hell outta the females that i was with. LOL

anyway.....to be nice, i got her number and told her i would call her. I felt kinda bad, but if i go...and she is there tonight. I will feel worse.....

-MDot-
"Loyalty, Honor, Valor"

tired of bullshit...

so.....i just got a call from my ex's mom asking me have i heard from her daughter.....

now....im confused because she talked so much shit about me when i broke up with her daughter i thought that i wouldnt ever hear from her again...

so she calls tonight acted all nice and shit......man.....im not tryin to deal with bullshit....fuck drama...im not bout it...if u hate me so much...why talk to me.....damn...

This Week.....Part II - My Ex

So my ex was really on some bullshit the other day

this broad had the nerve to go to my cousin's apartment and question his girlfriend (they know eachother) talking about. "do you know a girl named michelle?" my cousin's girl was like no and why....but my ex was like..its nothing..dont worry about it.....

first of all, if you come to my house asking me questions i have the right to know why you questioning me in the first place bitch.

ok...anyway, she ends up calling my brother kodie. and says the same thing, but then she explains to him that somebody that she knew was talking shit to this girl michelle that dont even live in the same city that we live in. and my ex JUST HAS TO do something about it. instead of being the adult in the situation and just ignoring ignorance.

her all talking about, no...this is serious and i just cant let people talk about me like that. for somebody who tries to avoid drama so damn much, it seems like she still wants to feed the fire. bitch...just stop paying ignorance attention and you wont have to be worried about it.

she's always talking about how grown she is, and how she doesnt have time for foolishness, but her ass is causing it to happen. i guess it really is true when they say age aint nothing but a number.

My Week....Part I - School

So classes started this week and i think i am off to a good start.

you know...we only been through the preliminary stuff...you know...intros....bullshit like that...so nothing to really get into detail with.

My instructors seem so down to earth and cool, i might not have to fall asleep in class now days. lol. yes...im known for that.

besides all the projects coming up soon...im pretty sure i will do good this semester. i just have to wait and see

Good Foot

so classes started today...i went to one of my two classes that i have and really got a good vibe from it. im starting out on a good foot. it might just be the new year, but i feel like im refreshed and ready to conquer a lot of obstacles this semester. it being my second to last semester out here, so many thoughts run through my head and im feeling so many different ways.....

Will i find a job?

If i do, will i be good at it?

Am i gonna be like these old people with degrees but don't find a career?

Will i make enough money to not struggle after im OFFICIALLY on my own?

Will i make my people proud?

theres so many other thoughts i have been having but most of them deal with me having a degree and no longer being a full time student. After i graduate, im thinking about going to get A+ and Network certified. Kinda build up my repertoire you know. make me more desirable to these companies out here.

Will i be successful though????? Only Time Will Tell.

-MDot-
"Loyalty, Honor, Valor"

Vent

Whats good everybody?

right now i just feel like gettin a lil something off my chest. trust me though...this blog isnt all gonna be vent sessions...but right now i feel like this is a good way to get some of this aggression out before i curse somebody out.

so lately....my phone has been on the crazy acting side, and at first...i was a lil pissed at it...but then i thought about it, "hey, this is kinda good" now....nobody can get in touch with me.....(because i couldnt pick up my phone) and when i felt like calling somebody...i could do it whenever i pleased. thing is, it feels good not being able to answer the phone, cuz most of the time...when somebody calls me, they are asking for something, or just bored and feel like talking my ear off.

fine....i will listen to you talk, but me...doing favors for you.....that had to stop sooner or later. im tired of gettin the phone calls....asking me....hey...can you take me to the store....or can i borrow a dollar or two....or some other random shit. and most of the time...when i say no....people tend to get attitudes like i owe it to them or something. if anybody owes anybody, its you owing me because i done did so much shit for you in the past. but nah....you wanna look over all that shit.

i think i would rather you be mad at me....than me end up with nothing in return. sure i do favors if im in the mood or if im feeling nice. but it seems i have been WAAAY too nice lately. time for the meanness to catch up.

-MDot-
"Loyalty, Honor, Valor"